Embrace the Pain

The Bible refers to Jesus as “A man of sorrows, acquainted with grief.” (Isaiah 53:3) What does that mean? Jesus is the Son of God, He is God. Never do we read how Jesus suffered depression, yet he is “A man of sorrows.” As I sit and ponder this I wonder, should we embrace our pain? What does that even look like?
If I embrace my pain, I am no longer fighting it. Not holding back tears, denying it is there, or forcing a smile. I am feeling it, moving with it, and learning from it. I am allowing this pain to teach me. Truly, nothing in our lives will change until we learn to change ourselves. So rather than resist it, ponder regrets, or keep ourselves busy in an attempt to ignore the pain until time has its way and dulls the sting, I will embrace it. I will thank God that I am able to feel it, to experience this emotion, just as Jesus was acquainted with grief, so am I. Without ever knowing the sting of pain the joy would not be as sweet. Not everyday is a spring day with the sun shining and birds chirping, even the majestic splendor of a rainbow can only be witnessed after the rain. There are days that are overcast and gloomy, days that I would rather just stay in the safe warmth of my own bed and that’s okay. I realize I only hurt because I have allowed myself to love, to hope, to dream and to believe. It is that vulnerability that enabled me to experience the joy and pleasure that came with that choice. Albeit, now I feel the pain of hopes diminished and dreams left unfulfilled at least I had that moment of happiness. To feel those butterflies in my stomach and the hope rekindled in my heart, if only for a fleeting moment, will not be filed under regrets. Rather it will be a cherished memory that brings a smile to my face and a warm glow to my spirit, as I look back on days now spent, while learning to embrace this pain.
Although, for now those hopes are dashed and today I feel that old familiar heartache, I remind myself that this will not last forever but only for a season. Once again I’ll smile and once again I will know love. Once again my hopes will burn and dreams will warm my soul. For then, because of this pain that I embrace that future day will be so much sweeter, so much richer and on that distant day I will savor it, I will cherish it, I will embrace it. As I will understand better that these days are exceptional seasons, and the times of warm sunshine on my face will once again give way to the bitter cold. I will remember that just as the months on the calender usher in new seasons, so does the moments we are given usher in the seasons of life. Each with their unique emotions, lessons and choices. Therefore, from this day forward I choose to embrace the pain.

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About Kat

I'm like my Father but not, in that I mean I love to create, perhaps because I was created by THE Creator. I like to write, I love photography, I sing really loud (when no one can hear). I have found that in writing I learn a lot about myself. Often I read back over what I wrote & sometimes think to myself, did I write that? I believe sometimes in my writing, my Father talks to me (especially in my personal journal). Writing for me is an escape, a release, a discovery, & art all at the same time. I also enjoy photography, however with photography I have the privilege of capturing a feeling and saving it for later, like bottling an emotion; I can experience it again or share it with another. Photographs tell their own stories. They are provocative, endless, & silent at the same time. A picture can stir up emotions, feelings of anger, excitement, or lull you to sleep. A picture can say so much without using even one word. Drawing is yet another form of expression I enjoy, in creating I am able to discover the world and myself. Life is simply amazing and often breathtaking. It is an experience that is meant to savored.

Posted on February 27, 2014, in Uncategorized and tagged , , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. Hi Kat, I’m sorry I didn’t see this. My email Inbox was flooded with 35,000 gmails so I shut it down. I’m cleaning it up now and came to your email.
    I like your observations about the Prov. 31 woman. I think it shows a multi-dimensional woman over the course of a long life. I hope Jesus makes us both into everything He has planned for His glory! Happy Easter,
    Kelly Grace

  2. so nice to meet you Kat… A source of joy is found in the overcoming of the sense of the uselessness of suffering, a feeling that is sometimes very strongly rooted in human suffering. This feeling not only consumes the person interiorly but seems to make him a burden to others. The person feels condemned to receive help and assistance from others and at the same time seems useless to himself. The discovery of the salvific meaning of suffering in union with Christ transforms this depressing feeling. Faith in sharing in the suffering of Christ brings with it the interior certainty that the suffering person “completes what is lacking in Christ’s afflictions”; the certainty that in the spiritual dimension of the work of redemption he is serving, like Christ, the salvation of his brothers and sisters. Therefore he is carrying out an irreplaceable service.

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